Intense Evening

Wow, where to begin….

Well, after work Monday evening, I came home and figured I was still in the dog house from Sunday (read The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly for details) and figured I needed to be on my best behavior if my dick was to see the light of day any time soon. So I made sure that when I got home, my mind was already working out what I was going to make for dinner, how I was going to pay attention to MrsKeeper and make myself generally available and submissive. This is fairly normal for me – I am still working on my general submissive mindset – but that evening was extra important, because I wanted her to see that I really did understand the lesson from Sunday night.

So I got naked and greeted MrsKeeper in the usual way, and then went into the kitchen to start dinner. We talked, I cooked and at some point Mistress looked down and said “why don’t we take your cage off” and then looked directly in my eyes and added, “but don’t think you’re getting any play tonight”. I nodded, and honestly was just happy to have the cage off for the evening.

Got the cage off, and immediately went to go wash up (after a 2 days or more a proper cleaning is definitely in order), and MrsKeeper followed me in to watch me while I washed up in the tub.

I must say, one of the things which has surprised / impressed me about MrsKeeper’s owning my chastity, is just that – she owns it.

When we first started talking about chastity play (before the switch) I made mention that I really was looking forward to not having to worry about keeping from masturbating. You see, I have a high sex drive, and have pretty much since puberty (around 8-9) been masturbating at least once a day, sometimes up to 7 or 8 times a day if I was really horny and had the time to myself. Even when being sub to MrsKeeper and on orgasm denial I would still touch myself without permission and sneak in some masturbation (I would never try to cum in those circumstances, but on rare occasion I would have an oopsie). I wouldn’t call it a compulsion, but I was pretty close to it.

MrsKeeper and I both have very open and progressive attitudes toward sex, but even so, the fact I would get up in the morning and toss one off while she slept, bothered her. Not particularly because I was masturbating, but the frequency of it, and the fact I would do it while she was in the house, bothered her. In addition, she was not pleased with the disrespect of not following her orders when I was sub previously. (I know it will be a little redundant, but in a future post I will go deeper into the why’s, wherefor’s and results of my chastity).

The upshot of all this is - as I said – she owns it. She takes her keyholding seriously – more serious than any other BDSM play we have done to date. Because of that, I am not out of her sight, except for brief moments, with the cage off. And I’ll be honest, the thought to stroke is there and does cross my mind, it certainly takes some willpower to resist. That and the fact I do not know what she would do if she caught me; but I do know it would be bad and take a long time to undo.

So after the quick rinse off, we went and had some dinner and watched TV on the couch reclining.

After dinner MrsKeeper reached over and began to play with her cock (the one attached to me ). Now, at this point, she definitely had my attention, but she does this most of the time I am out anyway – in a way her cock is her worry stone – she’ll reach out and play with it just because its there.

Well of course I got hard pretty quickly, and leaned back in the recliner as it began to really feel good. She quickly brought me to my first edge – always the best one IMHO, and I was beyond suprised and elated.

Quickly she brought me to my second, third and fourth – I don’t remember time, but I bet it was no longer than 5 minutes. At this point, she excused herself and went into the bedroom. Meanwhile I lay panting on the couch.

She returned with a bottle of lube – it was at this point I knew I was in for it. MrsKeeper rarely uses lube – unless it is going to be a particularly hard T&D (tease and denial) session.

She slowly poured the lube into her hands, and I, at this point, was harder than I have ever been (at least it seemed that way!) She grabbed me with both hands and began stroking up and down. I groaned and she slowly brought me up to the edge of orgasm. Once there, she began stroking slowly, only on upstrokes, and kept me there, right on the edge of orgasm. I was in heaven!

Then she changed and stroked only on the down-stroke, keeping me on the edge. Then she stopped, let me cool down, and grabbed hard and quickly brought me to orgasm edge. After 5 or 6 times I was babbling like a fool. (Seriously, I have this image in my head of being slack jawed, eyes rolling into the back of my head, and incoherent. I think the only thing missing was a little drool to complete the picture.)

It was at this point, things begin to get hazy. The edgings seem to run together, and I began to loose track of time. I do know that for a good while (4-5 minutes I guess) I remember her slowly stroking on that million dollar money spot, the one just underneath the frenum, and keeping me on the bleeding edge of orgasm the entire time. It was at this point I remember thinking that I couldn’t take it anymore – problem was all I could do was pant and squeak “oh god!” on occasion. It made her giggle.

Closer and closer to orgasm but never crossing the line – until finally she rubbed and I said “Mistress!” (my cue that I am there on the edge) and she stroked a couple more past and pushed me slightly over. As I began to fall off the edge off the precipice and into the abyss of orgasm, MrsKeeper quickly clamped one thumb down hard on the top closing off my urethra, and with the other hand she pressed down on my urethra just below the head. The orgasm washed over me as I felt the pressure in my groin increase and then the orgasm kind of stopped. I had the contractions (in fact about triple the normal), but no satisfaction, no delicious release. It just kind of hurt, not in a bad way, more of an uncomfortable way. It did not feel good.

Once the contractions subsided, MrsKeeper slowly let go and a small jet of precum mixed with a little cum, shot and dribbled out the end of my cock. The total volume was about a teaspoon (my normal volume is about a tablespoon – without denial). I was still mostly hard and though I had some sense of relief (I think more because the scene was over) I was still horny as hell, and I had a minor ache from blue balls.

MrsKeeper was elated! She had ruined the orgasm completely.

Soon after MrsKeeper said we needed to get ready for bed and told me to go get the CB-6000 on. That was one of the hardest things I have had to do to date. I was horny, tired and putting that CB back on at that moment was not sexy, it was not fantasy fulfilling – it was subjugating.

In hindsight, it was furthter confirmation of how serious she is about controlling me – and that is sexy. It is one piece of an overall tapestry of Dominance and submission that I crave and desire – that turns me on to no end. But at that moment in time, that act of washing and putting the chastity belt back on – that was one of the more difficult things I have had to do to date, and I wouldn’t have had it any other way. At that moment I felt like owned property – that she had finished playing with her toy, and now it needed to be cleaned up and put away. In fact, the next day she did tell me that that session was more experimentation and exploration of technique than doing a scene on me.

The matter of factness, the impression of cold calculating experimentation, the sense of property and ownership she gave and gives me – that is the most powerful headspace I have EVER been in – and I love every last bit of it.

{N.B. I have been working on this post for a couple of days now. I apologise for the delay, but I have needed this time to process that evening – it was very powerful, and I have needed some time to process all the things and emotions that came out of it. I have some other posts in draft for that will probably get finished as the week ends. So keep an eye out here, and thanks for reading – I cannot tell you how cool it is to see the numbers and stats of this blog keep climbing! It really gives me a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction.

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